TL;DR 1: I rediscovered handicraft and bought new tools.
Yesterday, I spontaneously bought a Dremel multi-purpose rotary tool along with a workstation for this tool. I want to take handicraft up again and expand my basic collection of tools at the same time. The goal is to build up a tiny temporary hobby workshop in my apartment. It lacks the space to create a permanent workshop so I set everything up each time I want to do handicrafts. My height-adjustable living room table will serve as "workbench". Now I need to buy a washable tablecloth and some clamps to fixate the workstation if needed. A tiny vise would be a good idea as well.
Many years ago, I did some kind of occupational therapy at a daycare facility that possessed a cabinetmaker's workshop. I really loved working with wood. I created most of my work pieces there (I presented some of them in
this thread). Since I left the occupational therapy I had the wish to continue working with wood. In the course of time, I acquired some tools, however I never pursued doing handicraft seriously in my own four walls because somehow my motivation was lacking. Now, many years later, I feel that it's different this time. I'm more stable and can manage my motivation (or energy) better. If that would not be the case, I wouldn't have bought these new tools.
TL;DR 2: I found possible causes for some problems I have. I want to practice mindfulness and heal my inner child as next big steps on my journey to self-healing.
Today, I did a deep dive in the web regarding
misophonia and this lead me to Quiet BPD:
https://www.verywellmind.com/what-is-qu ... er-5115074
https://eggshelltherapy.com/quiet-bpd/
and Complex post-traumatic stress disorder in connection with sensitivity:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Complex_p ... s_disorder
https://eggshelltherapy.com/sensitivity ... od-trauma/
Many of the things I read in these linked articles hit home. It explains the numbness I feel very often, the internalized anger, why I have problems recalling my past and many other things.
I also found the next big steps on my journey to self-healing which are
mindfulness and
healing my inner child. I will break these steps up in smaller steps and do them in my own pace to not overwhelm myself (again). Healing takes time. I tried mindfulness some years ago but I wasn't ready for it and/or not patient enough. I'm curious if I succeed integrating it in my daily routine this time.
Modding on the Spectrum
